i wonder do I have to lose someone dear to me every year
during this period of time.

last year was boonkiat,
and who will it be this year?

i really hope it's could be someone else less significant.
i didn't want things to turn out like this.

because i've my patience and i know it is very limited
to those i don't really care much. (meaning
i flare up 10 times more if you're not significant
to me). After all the incidents, I finally cannot
take the nonsense already.

I could have just shove you off with the slightest
thing which I can find to make you my enemy. I didn't.
And today, I finally burst. The one whom I always care,
has been taking for granted for too long. And partly
because of that particular friend, I hasnt been paying
attention to those whom care for me.

no matter how hard i tried to hold you back,
you still choose to leave.




if you arent an important friend to me, i wouldnt have cared if i lose you or not.